Self Portrait

Everyone wants a piece of me.
They tear at my soul,
Not seeing the person within,
One who is timid and shy,
Afraid to speak or be seen.
I dare not voice an opinion
As someone will notice me.
Far better to sit on the boundaries
Of life and watch.
My picture is a collage:
Who I was, and who I should be.
Graphic lines cut and fold my skin
To improve, reshape, or simply remove
To achieve perfection.
In whose eyes?
Eyes that sought and changed,
Then left a shallow shell of a being
Once comfortable with herself
Now left out in the rain to bleed.
The chalks and paints are washed away
Taking my life’s force with them.
I am just a mural on a wall,
A face once familiar now lost
To time and erosion.

Image credit; Sean Robertson @Unsplash
For the visually challenged reader, the image shows a woman’s painting on a wall. There are words scribbled on the sides of the wall art and people have drawn on the face too.

Written for Sadje’s What do you see #90.

About pensitivity101

I am a retired number cruncher with a vivid imagination and wacky sense of humour which extends to short stories and poetry. I love to cook and am a bit of a dog whisperer as I get on better with them than people sometimes! We have recently lost our beloved dog Maggie who adopted us as a 7 week old pup in March 2005. We decided to have a photo put on canvas as we had for her predecessor Barney, and now have three pictures of our fur babies on the wall as we found a snapshot of my GSD so had hers done too. From 2014 to 2017 'Home' was a 41 foot narrow boat where we made strong friendships both on and off the water. We were close to nature enjoying swan and duck families for neighbours, and it was a fascinating chapter in our lives. We now reside in a small bungalow on the Lincolnshire coast where we have forged new friendships and interests.
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19 Responses to Self Portrait

  1. That’s a wonderful take, Di

  2. quiall says:

    A battle I have had my entire life.

  3. Sadje says:

    A very evocative and moving poem Di. My heart went out to this girl. Thanks for joining in my friend

  4. Chris Hall says:

    Wonderful poem, absolutely perfect for the prompt, Di!

  5. murisopsis says:

    Too often the way for women – attempting to conform to gain acceptance until we are lost to ourselves. Wonderfully stated in you poem!

  6. Love this from the side of the mural. Nicely done.

  7. Fantastic take on the prompt!

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  9. Msdedeng says:

    This is absolutely brilliant! Oh my gosh!

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