Sometimes the world seems to be turning without you.
It’s a weird feeling, as you’re awake but walking in a haze, putting one foot in front of the other as a matter of course, but totally unaware of which direction you’re taking.
You reach your destination and have no clear recollection of how you got there, just that you arrived and were glad of it.
Hours stretch to days, then weeks, sometimes months and there is no conscious difference between each twenty four hours as everything has a sameness and we lose track of time.
Conversations babble around you, the occasional word filters through your mental fog, and you realise someone is actually talking to you, but you have no idea what about.
You stare at them blankly, they repeat whatever it was, but your mind has already flittered elsewhere and their words are lost again in the cocoon of your silence.
It’s not that you mean to be rude, are ignoring them, or unaware of their presence, it’s just that they are there, and you are………. well, not. At least not in the same place, time frame or mindset as they are.
Some people describe it as being ‘away with the fairies’ or ‘lost in a world of their own’.
Wherever we are in that stasis, we are indeed alone and no-one is privy to our thoughts or surroundings. It is as if we have shut ourselves off from everything and everyone, be it for our own protection in the case of trauma or just wishing to retract from the current status quo to self analyse or regroup.
We eventually catch up and begin to feel part of the revolving world again, but that ‘sometimes’ space is so vitally needed when we feel things spiralling out of control and we need to take stock to regain our equilibrium.
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