Fifteen weeks

It’s been fifteen weeks since my mastectomy and all in all things are settling down nicely.
The new meds seem to suit which is a relief, though we won’t know if my cholesterol is affected until my diabetes MOT in May, unless of course I ask for it to be checked before hand.

Most of the time I don’t think about it, but obviously getting dressed or undressed, having a shower, or doing my exercises is a reminder.
I never liked my body much anyway, and ‘the girls’ weren’t exactly a selling point of my anatomy, a decent size I suppose as breasts go, but nothing to write home about or over noticeable. Now I’m down to a mono boob, there isn’t much difference!

This morning in the shower I soaped myself as usual and continue to be amazed at how tidy, smooth and flat my chest is on that side. You cannot feel the join and it’s weird to see my ribcage, as if a breast had gone 45º South. The football is still there under my arm though. I don’t know if it’s getting less or not to be honest.
I have proper feeling in my upper arm now rather than a fuzzy tickle, and still do the exercises twice a day. They help in keeping me supple and not stiffening up. Whoever designed them knew which muscles did what as I can feel them all working as I work my way through them.

We still don’t understand why I had a second strike, but that’s the luck of the draw I guess.
I’ve been reading a lot of my posts since October. My attitude and sense of humour haven’t changed, though there is still some underlying anger and ‘Why me?’ there. We can’t change what’s happened, and together we’ve faced it, dealt with it and got on with life.
I won’t have my next mammogram until September. Hubby knows I am anxious about it, wanting a clean bill of health on the other side which had not been affected.
It’s a long time to wait.

The darts team noticed a change in me this week, said I was more like my usual self, didn’t look so tired and had more energy. I felt high actually, non-drug or alcohol induced of course, but totally and utterly wonderful. The Precious was giving me full support, and the general atmosphere of the night improved our play no end.
I’m feeling better every day, though I must admit a little tired these past couple of days but then I’ve been walking the dog more often. I’m getting there. Hurrah!

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I am a retired number cruncher with a vivid imagination and wacky sense of humour which extends to short stories and poetry. I love to cook and am a bit of a dog whisperer as I get on better with them than people sometimes! We have recently lost our beloved dog Maggie who adopted us as a 7 week old pup in March 2005. We decided to have a photo put on canvas as we had for her predecessor Barney, and now have three pictures of our fur babies on the wall as we found a snapshot of my GSD so had hers done too. From 2014 to 2017 'Home' was a 41 foot narrow boat where we made strong friendships both on and off the water. We were close to nature enjoying swan and duck families for neighbours, and it was a fascinating chapter in our lives. We now reside in a small bungalow on the Lincolnshire coast where we have forged new friendships and interests.
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42 Responses to Fifteen weeks

  1. Glad you’re doing well.

  2. joyroses13 says:

    Cheers to you! Thoughts are with you as you continue to heal, hope you keep doing well!

  3. Liz says:

    Nice to hear you are doing well and I hope the tablets you are on do well for you long term. Will you need to mention about your lump in your armpit. Or is it a matter of seeing what happens in a few months?

    • It’s perfectly normal apparently. My SW consultant had her op early last year and still has hers. I’ve mentioned it to my GP though. It’s just where they were digging around for the lymph nodes and it’s confused the nerves a bit. It doesn’t hurt, and I don’t really notice it much now.

  4. blindzanygirl says:

    All good news Di!xx

  5. So glad you’re doing well, it’s a long hard haul back to “normal” I’m recovering from a total hysterectomy and am still surprised how tired I get. Dr says it’s normal so there’s that. Better days ahead, lots of ’em 🤩

  6. It’s no consolation but when I went on the cancer drugs after my surgery, I was told it would reduce risk of a re-occurrence down to 5% or so. Unfortunately someone is in that 5%. I expect it’s unlikely that you will have any more issues. Your recovery seems to be going smoothly!

  7. Great to hear you’re starting to feel better, and best wishes for the future.

  8. Michael says:

    Hi di, glad you are feeling better. I have to admit to being out of the loop in recent times. I saw references to your having an op but didn’t know what it was, so now I feel somewhat ‘abreast’ (Sorry bad pun I know) of your situation. Hoping you continue to grow stronger, we need you about the blog world as I am sure your darts team does too.

    • Hi Michael. Thanks so much for your comment. I;m not going anywhere without a fight. When they found something on my routine mammogram in September and we had it checked out, we expected more surgery, but not a mastectomy. It was a shock and I asked my consultant to let me pick my bowels up off the floor before she continued. Hubby and I faced it together though as we did in the past and the support I’ve had from everyone has been tremendous. Pun away my friend. It does not worry me and I can always see the funny side, hence the booby birds!
      Hope you’re OK though. I’ve noticed your absence apart from the Tale Weavers and a couple of others, Take care.

      • Michael says:

        Life has its ups and downs doesn’t it and as we get older more downs than ups.But I am doing ok, I had a fall some weeks ago and that has set me back, we don’t mend like we once did. And yes I have been absent a bit, selective you might say. My ex wife had a mastectomy six months after we separated, apparently the cancer was my fault but as far as I know she had recovered and is clear these days. Take care of you Di.

      • Sorry to hear about your fall, and hope you are well on the road to recovery. Like you say, we don’t bounce back as well when we’re older. Guess I was lucky in that I’d never really been ill or had operations which is why I’ve healed so well. In time the scar will fade but as it stands now, it’s so hard to believe it hasn’t always been like that, the surgery is so neat and tidy.
        Glad your ex is clear, but it was definitely not your fault. Did she go for reconstruction? I decided against it as I consider myself too old and not likely to be on the front page of Vogue magazine or go topless LOL.

      • Michael says:

        Thanks Di I don’t think reconstruction is something she might discuss with me 😀

      • Maybe not then, as you had separated by then.

  9. That’s good news. Keep looking after yourself.

  10. Reblogged this on idahobluebird50 MYSTERIES GALORE AND PHOTOS and commented:
    A blogging friend who had two tumor girls” on her them. It is good to know she still has her humor.

  11. Sadje says:

    You’re a strong person Di! I love your attitude and the way you’ve handled everything.

  12. jenanita01 says:

    I think you have coped very well, Di… and I agree that waiting so long for reassurance only adds to the worry. I have spent the last four years in a state of this suspended worry, but so far I’m clear. One more year and they sign me off, although I don’t suppose the worry will ever go away. Leaves a nasty legacy, doesn’t it?

  13. I’m so glad you’re on the mend and feeling “high.” An upbeat attitude goes a long way. Keep up the work of healing and finding joy in every day. ❤

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