Saturday 24th March.
In my sleep, I had called for Mum and heard her distinct reply: ‘I’m coming.’
I awoke smiling, Mum being my first conscious thought of the day.
Hubby and I lit the large Church candle at home at 10.30 at the same time as sending a text to my sister, knowing Mum’s ashes were being scattered at that time.
At 10.31, I sat down at the keyboard and played Wind Beneath My Wings as if my heart would break.
We let the candle burn all day, it’s reflective flame lighting Mum’s face in their wedding anniversary photo for the duration.
I may not have been there for you physically Mum, but I did my best.
Together in The Garden of Forever.
I love and miss you both.
I am a retired number cruncher with a vivid imagination and wacky sense of humour which extends to short stories and poetry. I love to cook and am a bit of a dog whisperer as I get on better with them than people sometimes!
In November 2020, we lost our beloved Maggie who adopted us as a 7 week old pup in March 2005. We decided to have a photo put on canvas as we had for her predecessor Barney. We now have three pictures of our fur babies on the wall as we found a snapshot of Kizzy, my GSD when Hubby and I first met so had hers done too.
On February 24th 2022 we were blessed to find Maya, a 13 week old GSD pup who has made her own place in our hearts. You can follow our training methods, photos and her growth in my blog posts.
From 2014 to 2017 'Home' was a 41 foot narrow boat where we made strong friendships both on and off the water. We were close to nature enjoying swan and duck families for neighbours, and it was a fascinating chapter in our lives.
We now reside in a small bungalow on the Lincolnshire coast where we have forged new friendships and interests.
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I believe your spirit was with your Mum and she knew.
Me too. We lit the candle this morning so as to taper it a little before putting it away. The reflective light was nowhere near Mum and we hadn’t changed anything.
Hugs and that is such a beautiful song!
Mum loved it.
I felt much the same when my mom and dad died. I had such mixed feelings – glad that they were released from suffering, but I knew that I would and still do miss them terribly!
I am so sorry for your loss, and hope you have some wonderful memories to treasure.
They say Time is a healer, that it may be to some, but to me it just smooths over the edges of sorrow. Dad died in 1996 and Mum this past January, though I feel Mum has been gone longer because of her dementia and also the distance between us which made visiting infrequent. In my heart they are together so they are always with me, though I miss Dad’s wicked sense of humour at our DIY efforts and miss writing letters to Mum, even though I knew she’d never reply to them.
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