Do you believe in Fate?
I find it amazing that people live similar lives and yet they may not know each other.
We can be born with the same choices, but as individuals we chose our own path, and sometimes things do not work out as well for us as we’d hoped.
When I left all those years ago, it was with a heavy heart, even though I knew it was the right and only thing to do. No child should have to grow up in a hostile environment or be expected to intervene, take sides or protect during an adult argument.
The relationship was over, but my stubborn pride refused to acknowledge that fact and so I stayed probably years longer than I should have. I think this actually made things harder for those I cared for and left behind. I have always felt badly about that.
So, you are married and a family man. I think that’s wonderful and I trust that you are happy and living a good life. I don’t envy you the struggles of today bringing up a family. Heaven knows it was tough enough for me, but things have changed, and not necessarily for the better.
I am sorry that both your brother and father have alcohol issues.
My own experience was painful and soul destroying, but there comes a time when you have to accept that you cannot win the fight and walk away. It seems perhaps you have already done that.
I have some questions for you though.
You had an address, you visited, but did you have any other contact with Jenny other than your 18th and 21st birthday cards? Did your brother receive similar cards? Did you write or try to contact her in any way, or were the circumstances of following through on your visit such that the reaction was likely to be more volatile than you could handle?
I ask because after LJ’s visit, I heard nothing else directly, though I was happy to have seen him and know he did not hate me for what can only be described as desertion. I could clearly envisage the problems he would face if it became known he had any contact with me, let alone had paid me a visit. I understood what could happen, and certainly did not wish him any unhappiness or conflict because of it.
There appears to be many coincidences here.
I have not been called Jenny for a long time, but that does not mean I am your Jenny.
Other than the time frame, places, parental names and ages haven’t been mentioned. Where did you grow up?
I would be foolish to disregard the possibility that we may have known each other a long time ago.
But I am guarded.
Life is full of parallels and paradoxes. People change, and some disappointments are never recovered from.
Do you wish to pursue this, or leave things as they are?
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