Dear Jim (Red Letter Day 7)

redletterdayThank you for taking the time to contact me.
I must admit I was somewhat surprised to hear from anyone.

Do you believe in Fate?
I find it amazing that people live similar lives and yet they may not know each other.
We can be born with the same choices, but as individuals we chose our own path, and sometimes things do not work out as well for us as we’d hoped.

When I left all those years ago, it was with a heavy heart, even though I knew it was the right and only thing to do. No child should have to grow up in a hostile environment or be expected to intervene, take sides or protect during an adult argument.
The relationship was over, but my stubborn pride refused to acknowledge that fact and so I stayed probably years longer than I should have. I think this actually made things harder for those I cared for and left behind. I have always felt badly about that.

So, you are married and a family man. I think that’s wonderful and I trust that you are happy and living a good life. I don’t envy you the struggles of today bringing up a family. Heaven knows it was tough enough for me, but things have changed, and not necessarily for the better.

I am sorry that both your brother and father have alcohol issues.
My own experience was painful and soul destroying, but there comes a time when you have to accept that you cannot win the fight and walk away. It seems perhaps you have already done that.

I have some questions for you though.
You had an address, you visited, but did you have any other contact with Jenny other than your 18th and 21st birthday cards? Did your brother receive similar cards? Did you write or try to contact her in any way, or were the circumstances of following through on your visit such that the reaction was likely to be more volatile than you could handle?
I ask because after LJ’s visit, I heard nothing else directly, though I was happy to have seen him and know he did not hate me for what can only be described as desertion. I could clearly envisage the problems he would face if it became known he had any contact with me, let alone had paid me a visit. I understood what could happen, and certainly did not wish him any unhappiness or conflict because of it.

There appears to be many coincidences here.
I have not been called Jenny for a long time, but that does not mean I am your Jenny.
Other than the time frame, places, parental names and ages haven’t been mentioned. Where did you grow up?

I would be foolish to disregard the possibility that we may have known each other a long time ago.
But I am guarded.
Life is full of parallels and paradoxes. People change, and some disappointments are never recovered from.
Do you wish to pursue this, or leave things as they are?

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I am a retired number cruncher with a vivid imagination and wacky sense of humour which extends to short stories and poetry. I love to cook and am a bit of a dog whisperer as I get on better with them than people sometimes! We have recently lost our beloved dog Maggie who adopted us as a 7 week old pup in March 2005. We decided to have a photo put on canvas as we had for her predecessor Barney, and now have three pictures of our fur babies on the wall as we found a snapshot of my GSD so had hers done too. From 2014 to 2017 'Home' was a 41 foot narrow boat where we made strong friendships both on and off the water. We were close to nature enjoying swan and duck families for neighbours, and it was a fascinating chapter in our lives. We now reside in a small bungalow on the Lincolnshire coast where we have forged new friendships and interests.
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7 Responses to Dear Jim (Red Letter Day 7)

  1. colinandray says:

    The “cliff hanger” ………………. will he reply? His character, and human curiosity, would lead me to think yes!

    • I am working on a final chapter, but does it work leaving it like this do you think?

      • colinandray says:

        You will have to clarify what “like this” means! If you mean at #7 ………. my thought is no. The story needs to go further. You have “painted” a picture of generally reasonable characters so I would find it odd if Jim did not reply. Please be aware that I am not an authority on story writing but just someone who appreciates reading what a creative mind can produce. Six different people will probably give you 6 different answers to your question! It is your story so the only important thing is that you are happy with the ending.

      • I am glad you think it needs to go further which is the direction I’m heading. I tend to waffle on (a lot), things can get too complicated and sometimes I lose track so I appreciate your input. Thanks.

      • colinandray says:

        Additional thought! You can finish at #7 if her letter is returned “addressee unknown”!

      • A-ha…………………….an alternative I hadn’t thought of!

      • colinandray says:

        The letter being returned would seem a good ending as long as you want to finish the story now however, you have created so much “material” to work with that a much longer version is probably quite practical. I guess it comes down to “creator’s rights”! Whatever you want to do is the right thing to do.

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